My business

Last night as I went to sleep I was thinking back to last week at church. I was thinking about being totally embarrassed that my kids were so out of control. I thought "Ugh, what must my friends think of me." That is when a quote another friend shared in her lesson popped into my head. So I thought I would share it. The quote comes from her mother - "What people think of me is none of my business." At first I thought "What??" But in that moment of quiet laying in bed I sensed what it means to me at this point in my life. Truly what others think of me and my children should not alter the way I am or the way I treat my children. Sometimes I think I am so worried about what other people will think that I am more stern or overly demanding of my children. I am not sure why I am that way or if it is normal for a mother to feel that way. Part of it I think is that we have so many young children and I feel that if they act up people will blame us or say "You shouldn't have had so many children - at least not that fast." So part of me feels as if I always have something to prove. Quite frankly that is ridiculous - a lot of people feel that way no matter how we act. So why do I let it get to me? Having six kids is stressful enough at times - I need to stop making it harder by trying to prove myself to people who really don't care about us anyway. So that is my goal. To stop worrying about what other people think - after all it is none of my business. So let me know what you think about this goal ---- just kidding!!! Well, you can tell me but in the end it will not alter my decision -- is that better? Am I making progress? This is going to be tough.